We mess up

Twice today. What was that, 4 hours?

I’m a total anonymous internet goofball who says one thing and does another.

However, one day I will look back on this and have the last laugh.

Symptoms

Why? After you were doing so well too

For some dumb reason I picked up vaping again like a week ago. And my brain was feeling low down. iT nEeDeD iTs FiX

I need to come to terms with the fact that this will suck on some level

It’s about upending my psychology and returning to a healthy, porn free one.

No more vape, ever

When I started vaping, I swear to god initially it was the best thing ever. I’m not kidding it literally took three months on a direct correlation negative slope for my enjoyment to go from tippity top to absolutely not much effect.

I quit for two months, and then picked it up for about a week last week.

It wasn’t even close to as good as when I first vaped. I’m very used to it.

Vaping puts me in the headspace of not caring about my body. Which I suppose is true, if I’m breathing in an aerosol that probably causes cancer, lung infections etc. It’s not really rationally worth it considering how poor the payback is.

Any astute reader of this blog will know that we’re not exactly the most rational, here at Porn Is Dicey. But we do try. Our best. Jesus.

Porn Free 2024

Let’s fucking go. Going to be two weeks vape free heading in to 2024. With a great psychology and mindset, just like I have had for the past two weeks, the cleanest two weeks of my life.

And last week I felt mental clarity like I never thought I’d have in my life

It’s in me, and I’m ready to make it happen.

Two years of recovery

Is what it takes to return to a healthy psychology. I’m in this for the long-haul, for a porn-free life.