The Melodrama
“I’m done messing around. Time to quit this horrible addiction once and for all.”
THIS IS YOU
”Wow I have spent over a decade really detesting my porn usage. I know it brings me a lot of suffering. It is poisoning my soul. Oh how I wish I could quit. Too bad, because I’m ‘addicted’.”
ONE PMO SESSION LATER
i hate this so much. i wish i could quit
i guess i will just languish in suffering for another few years and not really think about quitting
A NEW START
”I’m serious this time. I am going to defeat my porn addiction. I’m going to install a porn blocker, I’m going to watch a series of youtube videos, it’s a new me.”
ONE PMO SESSION LATER
ughhh
i feel so useless at this
FIVE MONTHS OF UNRESTRAINED PMO LATER
”I’m feeling so crappy, I’m going to try this again. I can’t concentrate on anything”
TWO WEEKS LATER
”Wow… I’m starting to feel really good. My brain feels like it’s healing. I need to stay on the path, this is important to me.”
ONE SLIP UP LATER
”No problem, just a slip up. My brain is still healing. I’m on track.”
A WEEK LONG PORN BINGE LATER
…i’m truly the scum of the earth
why is this so hard? i literally want to be porn free so badly. it is the one thing i have wanted throughout my whole life. why is this still happening to me?
i don’t even know who i am anymore.
TWO MONTHS LATER
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THAT’S IT I’M QUITTING THIS
”I’m so tired of it all. I’m going to quit this time. I know I must. I’ve never wanted something so badly in all of my life.”
FOUR YEARS LATER
fuck… fuck fuck fuck. why am i still fucking doing this fucking shit
TWO YEARS LATER
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I NEED TO STOP
”I… don’t feel like I can stop. Part of my brain just completely believes that I am addicted for life. I’m going to try to stop anyway though. Probably in vain…”
I’M LOSING MY MIND
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WHY CAN’T I STOP SOMETHING I LITERALLY DON’T WANT TO DO
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