140+ days no porn 😉
Ello ello ello
Huh wdym you won
In December I finally met someone amazing on Hinge, love of my life kind of person. We are currently enjoying an amazing relationship together and it has been amazing. Ever since meeting her I have basically had no desire to look at porn, and the entire porn thing in my life finally feels completely over. This is by far the longest I have ever gone without using porn, and it feels fantastic.
But wait there’s more (ADHD)
Currently day 42 into quitting my nicotine habit. This shit drags on and on but I am never ever going back to nicotine, and this time I mean it. Recently got diagnosed with ADHD and turns out I was using it to self-medicate the entire time lol. So soon I will get medication and won’t have to even think about the nic.
Fyi, nicotine is a really dirty drug, highly addictive and binds promiscuously all across your body in many different areas. If you feel like you need need it, maybe actually look up the symptoms of ADHD. It is one of the worst named conditions ever. It’s not that you can never ever focus, sometimes you can focus extremely intensely if you lock in, but it’s hard to consistently apply that focus. Like seriously look up that condition if you find yourself being distracted, can’t concentrate consistently, have impulsivity issues, coping mechanisms etc. I wish I knew earlier.
I think it is probably a huge reason why I was as addicted to porn as I was. ADHD is all about getting stimulation.
This blog looking back
This blog has a lot of depressioncore aesthetic to it, which kind of is how I felt at the time of writing it. When I started it I was living with my parents and feeling down on my luck in general in so many ways.
I’m not really sure how many more articles I could really write for this blog going forward lol, it’s kind of a one-trick pony in many ways. I guess the ultimate solution to my porn issue here was to get a girlfriend, and probably also to start ADHD medication so I can get the stimulation that my brain so desperately craved the entire time.
I honestly feel so detached and far away from the previous lows of my porn addiction (and nicotine habit) that I feel like a totally new man. It is really wonderful and sweet. Seriously, seriously. If I can do it then I’m sure you can too. And it does make a massive difference. It is entirely worth it. Watching pornography is spiritual suicide to me at this point.
Good luck in your journey :)